theres no way to hide my sadness...
only other than listening to ss501 songs...
i feel like giving up on the whole
thing
but i remember wat matthias sunbae said once
to have perseverance
which is one of the gsps values

ya..
jus persevere till the whole thing comes to an end
i regret a lot of things
coming to this sch
where
there is no such thing as true friends

i'm not a friend who they treats as someones
who comforts them
but when i nid help
or sad
or i jus wan to talk
nobody cares
i find it harder each week to
communicate with them

nobody cares
in this sch
i dislike it
i jus wan it to change wats so difficult

they treat me selfish first
i will do the same
but i wont respect them

pp who treat n talk to me nicely
i will respect them
n do the same to them

pp complain abt my attitude
these pp
are those who treat me
selfish n rude
so its not jus my attitude
its my attitude towards them
n their attitude towards me...

i'm trying to ignore their attitude
but theres no way
each time i try
but theirs got worse each time

sigh...
my fear increase each time
when this happens
i begin to talk to my other
friends lesser when i see them
n i wanted to talk to them badly

sigh...

thurs...
thought that most of the graduated sunbaes were coming
was looking forward to it
although i got tution
i jus attended a short while
before that had maths remedial
sigh...

i rather face my other classmates
more than them

they all easier to talk to
n funnier...
they cares...
unlike these pp
each time we meet
i wanted to talk to them badly
but they sort of
dont care me more each time...
i can feel it

i dislike it
i jus need someone to talk to...
but each time i wanted to
the pp who i normally trust,
i knew they
had their sort of "OWN" friends
already

n i'm afraid to speak to them each time more
why must things be like that
why must i be in this sch
i dislike it

it came to me
that
all the sunbaes
who were so caring
had to leave one day
what am i gonna do when they leave?
i'm confused...
i tried to run away from it
more than once already

but i dun wan to
but i feel like
sigh...
i sick n tired of being treated like this...
am i really their friend?